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food for thought


by Everett A Warren
May 8, 2012

words
to escape by
pictures
to escape into
leaving behind
your supper
your room
your world
for another
if only for a moment
to return
while dinner is still warm
i fear your food will grow cold
but i have no doubt
you are now free to roam
where the wild things are
rest in wild peace, Mr. Sendak
and thank you for the meals
for our minds
that you've left behind


Copyright (c) 2012 Everett Ambrose Warren

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After being diagnosed with stomach cancer in November, and after 7 chemo treatments ~ with positive results reported on 14 May, Ronnie James Dio died this morning. He was 67 years old.


Today my heart is broken, Ronnie passed away at 7:45am 16th May. Many, many friends and family were able to say their private good-byes before he peacefully passed away. Ronnie knew how much he was loved by all. We so appreciate the love and support that you have all given us. Please give us a few days of privacy to deal with this terrible loss. Please know he loved you all and his music will live on forever.


- Wendy Dio

-- RonnieJamesDio.com



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As a child, there was one thing I looked forward to nearly as much as the visit from Santa Claus himself, and it was this: how would Uncle Richard attempt to trick that Jolly Old Elf, and, more importantly, how would the Big Guy in Red see through the tricks ~ such as a toeless stocking over a big basket ~ and what would he leave behind ~ onions? coal? Of course, we were encouraged by the other adults to side with the Bearded One, but each year what I really wanted was to see Uncle Richard succeed and get the best gifts ever, and lots of them!

As an adult, I highly suspect that the more he failed to trick Ol' Saint Nick, the more gifts he gave to everyone else, and, in turn, the more he received himself.

He will be missed.



Richard J. June, 65, of Worcester, died Friday, January 23, 2009 in Beth Israel Hospital, Boston.

He leaves his wife of 42 years, Susan E. (Moise) June; two sons, Richard D. June and his wife, Deborah of Groton; David E. June and his wife, Saengwian of Worcester; a daughter, Tracie E. Molnar and her husband, Matthew of Connecticut; two grandchildren, Bryce Tyler June and Zoe Green Molnar and nephews and nieces. He was predeceased by two brothers, Stanley E. and Chester D. June.

He was born in Worcester, a son of Stanley A. and Wanda (Lukasiewicz) June and lived here all his life. Mr. June was a school teacher for the City of Worcester and taught for 36 years and spent much of his career at Worcester East Middle School. He retired in 2004. He attended and graduated from Worcester schools. He earned his Bachelors degree and his Masters degree in Education from Worcester State College. Richard loved fishing, travel and friends and family. He was a member of Our Lady of Czestochowa Church.

The funeral will be held on Tuesday, January 27, from HENRY-DIRSA FUNERAL HOME, 33 Ward St, with a Mass at 10:30 am in Our Lady of Czestochowa Church, 34 Ward St. Burial will be in Notre Dame Cemetery. Calling hours in the funeral home are Monday, January 26 from 5:00 to 8:00 pm. In lieu of flowers, memorial contributions may be made to the Transplant Institute, Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center, Lowry Building 7th floor, 110 Francis St, Boston, Ma., 02215
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Epitaph: Poetry Insania
by Everett A Warren
June 9, 1991

I. Epitaph

"Behold, fond man!
See here thy pictur'd life;
Pass some few years,
Thy flow'ring, Spring,
Thy Summer's ardent strength,
Thy sober Autumn fading into age,
And pale concluding Winter comes at last.
And shuts the scene;
But Virtue sole survives.
The storms of Wint'ry Time will quickly pass,
And one unbounded Spring encircles all."


-- "Erected to the memory of Mr. Stephen Winchester, Who
died July 8, 1798, Aged 75" -- East Parish Burying Ground,
Centre and Cotton Streets, Newton, Massachusetts



II. Dreamer

There is a silence which touches all,
And as it descends it stifles the cries of distress
That would otherwise rebound on the basalt walls
That stand towering and surrounding amidst decaying meadows
That thrive with the flitterings and crunchings of myriad creatures
That are better unseen by a dreamer's healthy eyes.

Deafening, deafening, deafening is this unholy quiet,
As it offers a boreal glimpse of thoughts unthought.
Withering, withering, withering in the timeless void,
As it offers a boreal glimpse of words unspoken.

To where do you walk, between the geometric designs
That speak of times long past and sorrows immense
And of the cold, cold welcome that your forefathers bring,
The hour so late and the moon so thin as you walk in the depths of dream.

To whom do you address as you speak to the shadows
That stand quiet and attentive and flutter at the edges of vision,
Waiting for the wisdom that descends from unhallowed aeries
That demands your reasoning as you dance down the steps of dream
And descend to the halls of slumber.

How many years long past did you crawl in infancy,
A mind forever dreaming of the beauty surrounding you,
Was this world a different place where everyone was kind,
Now you hear the tears of man and nothing can block the sound.

Time obeys the words that echo in your heart -- and time stops.




III. In Mourning

It seems so quiet since Peace has gone,
There's a still that has captured the world in a flash of lightning,
And the thunder underscores the silence.

Rain explodes on the earth around me,
I stop my prayer to watch a lonely drop on a blade of grass,
Like me, it has fallen from the heavens.

Lightning dances from my fingertips and tears well in my sable eyes,
Thunder is equaled by a cry from my lips and the earth shakes in fear.

Once long ago when time was new,
I ran through the darkened wood,
To find honest man proved a fruitless search,
Hand clutched to heart, weakened I fell.

As if mocking my nature, I peer into the reflecting pool and clouds obscure the moon,
The whirlpool of thought is similarly unclear, I raise my hands to the sky in prayer,
A search for answers yields only water dripping from empty hands...
Has it been that long?




IV. Memorial

My hand is held out to you in love, and it is refused,
On these Ancient Brooding Grounds I pledge my love for you,
I await an answer but you are silent.
What can it be that turns you away from me,
What makes the fires in your heart as cold as new fallen snow.

It seems only yesteryear we were walking hand in hand down cobblestone lanes,
And your heart touched mine, we were warm despite the cold new fallen snow.
Now you lie before me, cold and barren as the winter lanes once were,
Spring time has fallen on the lands, beauty grows around me, yet it is pale.

It was there that we first met, in the caverns of sleep,
Has it been so long that your heart no longer remembers
What it's like to beat in synchronisation with the world I created for you.

Now my tears find a way to your heart, as they rain on blades of grass,
With a wish, I see them absorbed, as they must,
With a whisper I pray they will reach your heart buried deep beneath me.




V. Lament

Is it too late to stop the pain, now that all the actors have left the stage,
And the curtain falls down on the lifeless stage called Planet Earth.
A cold welcome shall you receive, judged before an audience of your peers,
And your critics will serve sentence, and they shall find you wanting.

And another life is ended, another monument is erected before me,
Another stone to pray before, tears begin once more,
Another Tragedy, as I cry for Comedy,
I curse the sky as I watch you bury
Thousands upon thousands upon thousands more.


Copyright (c) 1991 Everett A Warren

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When I die...

1. What would you like to have happen to your body after you die?
-I'd like one of those stereotypical unrealistic Viking funerals - build a full sized longship, stick my body on it, push it out to sea, and pepper it with fiery arrows. Yep. Nothing extensive. =)

2. If possible, do you want your organs donated? (Why or why not?)
-Definitely. There's a little girl - who I expect is about three years older than me - with my brothers eyes. Literally. This is a good thing, if it can be done. I'd have no further use for them.

3. Have you thought of what you would want your funeral to be like? (details?)
-Thought I covered that in #1. Outside of that, I covered it, kind of, at the end of #2 - I wouldn't be there, so it's not for me. As I have no interest in the matter, I don't see why I should dictate it. Yeah, I can see this cutting short the meme a wee bit.

4. If you were to die today, who would you want to give your eulogy?
-See the second half of #3 - it's not really for me, is it?

5. Which (if any) song(s) would you like played at your funeral?
-I can't hear them, but I'd hope folks would listen to stuff I like. Maybe talk about the different bands or composers or so on. Maybe go home with a listening list. =)

But, really, that's not for me to decide. I won't be there, see, so I won't feel bad if a favorite tune isn't played.

6. Do you want people to wear black at your funeral?
-Nope. Purple, head to toe. I insist. Oh, and see the second half of #3.

7. How do you feel about untraditional disposal of the body? (having your ashes turned into diamonds, donating your body to exhibits such as Body World, etc.?) Are there any you would consider?
-My way is quite traditional. It's been used in movies about Vikings since the dawn of cinema.

8. Do you want an open casket?
-Longship. An open longship. Didn't you read #1?

9. Would you want the ceremony to be religious?
-Well, other than the bits involving Odin and various other Norse gods, not at all. Read #3 again, please.

10. Anything else you would like to say?
-Sure. Lots. More poetry and fiction would be nice, as well as a lot of good, bad, and ugly posts from now until as long as possible. And so on.
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Roy Scheider passed away yesterday.

While Jaws and Jaws 2 were both big deals to me, Roy had an even bigger influence on me in the following decade, with Blue Thunder.

I credit his movie-winning supposed-to-be-impossible 360 in that helicopter with my wargame-winning 360 in an F18 simulator, which was performed from the aircraft's ceiling and should not have succeeded. I'm sure the MIG pilot that had been behind me was mighty surprised... and if it hadn't been for Roy, the results of that altercation would have been much different.
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A few days ago, some family members stopped by for a visit.

Both of my grandfathers were there - I'm sure of it - although they weren't part of the focus, indeed I didn't actually see them.

[livejournal.com profile] patrixa's mom was there, looking as I remember her being for most of my life, with a tiny hint of her last few years, and a slightly larger but still small impression of her from some pictures I've seen of her when she was much younger. She was smiling, not talking, always facing me, and always remaining a few feet away - I'd say "hovering" but I mean that in the sense of feet-on-the-ground, as one might do at a party.

My father was much closer, with an arm around me, and he was happy. Whenever I moved around, he stayed with me. He was the only one who spoke, although he only did so once.

There were other people in the dream as well, from work, other friends, all milling about talking about a variety of things.

After giving me a quick hug, my dad said, in a very reassuring manner: "Why don't you let us dead folks stick around, okay?"
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It's been almost a year since I first noticed my father's health might be not so good. We took a short hike along [livejournal.com profile] thetrail. He mentioned that he had always wanted to walk on the AT - and had been in and around it, but never on it. He didn't feel so good - just tired - and we almost didn't go, but I insisted, and we went, and got a couple of pictures of him on the trail, with the white blaze just over his head.

By mid November, the vague "eh" feeling had definite symptoms - blood clots in his legs - but no definite reasons. Cancer was ruled out through a series of tests and scans. Nothing definite showed up anywhere. Mid-December - the 15th - it was determined that he had some kind of cancer. On December 23, it was confirmed as gall bladder cancer. On January 26, he died.

~ ~ ~

During the entire course - from the vague nothingness to the clotting to the lying in a hospital bed plugged in to this, that, and everything else - when asked how he was doing, he would answer "okay" and then immediately turn around and ask, "And how are you doing?"

It was kind of maddening when you're trying to keep an eye on his health and want to find out exactly what his state-of-being was, but he was more interested in finding out what your state-of-being was - he wasn't sidestepping the issue, it was important to him to know how you were doing.

That he was dying, he was well aware... but how were you doing? He wanted to know.

~ ~ ~

I've been thinking about this a lot over the last six months or so. There is really nothing more important, although it may seem like it at times. How we act to others defines who we actually are. How we treat others when things aren't going well for us - even when we're almost dying, up until we are about to die (which happens only once, and can excuse certain behavior) - is far more telling than how we treat others when we're on top of the world, happy as a lark, with nothing but blue skies from now on.

So, how are you doing?
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Possibilities
September 25, 1995



What is man's purpose in life? Is it defined more by what follows death? Death is the framework enclosing our life, but it should be neither feared nor scorned, neither looked forward to nor run away from. It will be there, surrounding us, but should not be viewed of as limiting us.

...remainder of a short piece I wrote on a subject I've been thinking about a lot lately... )

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